the little things in life

THE LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE TO BE GRATEFUL FOR :

* The squeeky wheeled tray of the tea lady in the office, making her way to your cubicle to refill your afternoon supply of water!

* The little fishies made from red 'ang pow' packets.

* The warmth of the sun on your back while the air-conditioning is freezing in the office.

* The free mandarin oranges from a client you've never even met or knew you had.

* That your company's colour of choice isn't duck-crap-green.

* That you're not an absolute and complete 'banana' and can thankfully speak at least one dialect in the chinese language.

* A mini beanie to occupy idle hands.

* Colleague's constantly asking you if you've eaten.

* Eventhough your company's signature colour is gold/yellow, the lanyard is dark blue (someone had good sense).

* The office toilet is dry and CLEAN. (SO important)

* That the poster left behind by the last occupant facing you, is of the Multimedia Super Corridor plan and not the sewerage system. ( hey, you never know! :P )

* The new stationary set they provided is all black as opposed to the old holder of baby dull pink.

* You didn't have anything personal or embarassing in the drawer when they came to change the lock.



All the SMALL THINGS COUNT on any given day to make you feel just a little bit alright. :)

writing to you

Sometimes I find that when I write, I'm writing to you. To let you know what's going on... whether directly or indirectly. I don't know when you will actually go through blogs but I know you'll read them eventually. :)

I've been really tired with work this week. But things are really looking up for me so far this year. Supposed to be a great year for dragon's career. FINALLY! :P Most of this year's attention will be on that anyhow. As someone put it, the dragon was sleeping last year! Heh. And you thought you were the sleeping phoenix! Sorry dear, was your partner in sleep last year and didn't know it! *grin*

Believe it or not, yours truly is the Manager of Marketing & Sales in a property development company. And I am also the youngest manager in the company of more than 200 staff. Talk about pressure huh? :P I was warned not to be sensitive if people talk 'coz some of them actually have loads of experience (translation - very "mature" people) but don't get promoted because they lack a certain something. Beats me what that criteria is! And here comes along this young (in their eyes) thing who sits in a bigger cubicle with a view and knows bloody nothing about the property line, over-seeing what they do. Another irony of life?

Things have been ok so far... *fingers still crossed* By the time you get back, I'll know TOO much about the whole property industry 'coz I've been reading up loads on their developments. Funny, but it's one of those things you'd never imagine doing. Just like lecturing. ;)

Ok, anyways... really am very brain-dead. Have been sleeping real early, like REAL early. Maybe even before my niece! Hmm..... :P Later little one.

the worst feeling

I reckon that one of the worst feelings in the world is not being able to do anything to help a friend... to feel and be utterly helpless. More often than not, we can only sit back and watch them live out a very painful moment. One which you know is just part and parcel of life and something they have to deal with.

The only consolation is being there for them when they need you to be. Even then we feel that we wish there was more we could do to help out... and at the same time... nothing more could be expected.

I don't wanna be kissed

I don't want to be kissed.
I don't want to hear the sorry's
-there's always some excuse.
I don't want to feel like I have
to justify my principles.

I've been called too 'righteous'
If anyone can truly know what that means,
I've been called an ice queen
But to that I will not fold
I live for me, and not for others
to define and make sense of.

I don't want to be kissed
when I feel it's not right
or so that someone else
can feel better about things.

I don't want to be kissed
when I don't want to be kissed.

relive the past or live the future

This is actually a reply to a blog and I figured it would be a little too long for something labelled "comments" which are usually short and sweet. :) Not that this won't be. Well.... not that short anyway. :P Anyhow, before I go more in circles, we (I) shall retort...

Bear in mind that this is really just my opinion and it could differ per individual. To relive the past or live the future?

I don't think we can really "re-live" our past. We can get back into the rhythm of how things use to be but because of what we've gone through, in this case, I'd call it growing up, ;) things are bound to be a little different. It could be just the little things, how you see the world, how you feel about issues, about pancakes :P you know, that sorta stuff.

A void can always be filled. Just don't expect it to fit perfectly as it used to. Don't get me wrong... if it does, then great... but I'm just bearing in mind the role you've just independently built for yourself. You asked how that would be like, would the two worlds merge? Well, that can only truly be answered when you're back here and actually going through it. We can only imagine what it would be like but nothing beats being there.

But whatever it is, do not be afraid of the future. Live for the future. Home is where your heart is... and now your mind is prepared to combine your new found role with the old... just don't think about it so much. You'll be fine.

The roles that you play may or may not have altered. It largely depends on what you'd have expected to stay the same. Those who have known and liked you, will always like you. They will still be there. That's not gonna change. Those who are worth it will accept you for who you are, no matter how much you think you've changed.

One thing hasn't changed.... you still care about what others think. :P Seek approval from those you hold dear. Take anyone else's comments as the sharing of thoughts. Listen but don't always take it to heart.

Come back and live your future. There are no mistakes in tomorrow, just possibilities. :)

Hel-lo 2005!

When you greet the new year in an open field
It gives you an altogether new perspective
The quiet warmth, the starless sky, cotton clouds
And an amazing breeze unlike any local weather
Makes me think of Oz and Spring time

Staring up at the sky wrapped in a shawl
You can only, but heave a sigh and say goodbye
To a year you won't regret flew by and
Say a little prayer that this year will finally
Be your year, your year to shine and define

Surrounded by darkness and vanilla light
Falls of leaves like autumn scattered around
Sitting on a swedish carpet with peaches for thirst
A blanket and pillow made up the rest of the space
With all that I've said, don't you just wish...
Wish - You were there? :)