blood test

Mom's blood test came back today. :: inconclusive :: Which is why the MRI and biopsy are necessary. The MRI is scheduled for Monday.

It's really one of those irony of life situations. Mom watches her diet, organic food, healthy eating; and exercises, line-dancing, yoga, etc. Kinda goes to show that if things are meant to happen, it will regardless of the precautions you take.

Had organic food for lunch. Still not my cup of tea. Give me vegetarian food anytime. Probably just takes getting use to as with anything.

My aunt (mom's sis) is coming down from Penang today, to keep my mom company. Which is good for me 'coz the past few days have been very draining. I haven't been home so much in a very long time. Especially spending so much time with mom. It's good to have someone else with her to take her mind of things. Mom tends to over-think, over-worry, and has trouble sleeping when things happen. Which really isn't good since rest is what she needs most.

Dad's coming back too so yeah, things should be better. Less stressful at least.

*sniff* Lack of sleep and weariness has resulted in me sneezing an awful lot today. Can feel a touch of flu coming my way, if it isn't already here.

Rain... nice weather for sleeping. I should really get myself some of that - sleep.

parosteal osteosarcoma

Parosteal Osteosarcoma :- words as foreign to me as Russian til Wednesday, til I read mom's x-ray diagnosis : possible parosteal tumour. More commonly known as bone tumour, bone cancer.

Malignant - potentially fatal.

It didn't really hit me until yesterday night. The possible severity of this tumour on the femur. Cels / tissues that could kill. Mom believes there isn't a cure for bone cancer.

I broke down. Badly.

What made me break? Knowledge. I researched the term parosteal tumour after I heard it. And I kept on reading... Last night, I saw a picture of the operation they would carry out on parosteal osteosarcoma patients. Seeing that, knowing that my mom would have to go through it, was more than I could take. The strength that held me together since having heard the news from mom, gave way... to fear.

Daddy doesn't know yet, he's away. Seeing mom cry is utterly heart-wrenching. Tears of fear... tears of sorrow... tears for the end of a life.

Don't go there, I was told. I haven't... yet. What I know now, is enough to despair.